还有51天。。。。

已经很久没有写布落格了，原因有很多，毕业前就忙着毕业的事情；毕业后就忙着带妈妈和一些的亲戚到处去游玩；之后就回到沙巴去了。回到家就无法上网，因此就隔了好一段时间都没有update自己的布落格。
时间过得真快，还有51天就要结婚了，心里的感受是非常复杂的。非常期待，却有点担心；非常紧张，却觉得还有一段的时间才到那天；觉得还有很多事情还没有安排好，却好像没有什么事情做，唉！总之就是复杂。
一个星期前回来Kajang ，度过了一个难忘的28岁生日。下个星期就要回去沙巴了，然后就要开始发请柬。过后还要在一个营会中担任讲员。过后，就要准备自己的身、心、灵，进入人生的另一个阶段了。
毕业离开神学院后，就好像和一些的好友失去了所有的联络，希望大家仍然在祷告中纪念我。

中秋节

时间过得真快，今天是中秋节，是我离开家的第四个中秋节。还有两个星期我就要毕业了，要离开四年的神学生涯。毕业、离开，并不代表了结束，它却代表了另一个阶段的开始。要开始学习做某个人的老婆；做一个传道人；做一个师母；做一个媳妇。身份上的改变总带有一点的压力，但是我相信压力总是带来成长，只是在整个的过程中却是不容易的。不以“难”来形容它，乃是因为觉得它并不是难，有神的带领与保守，总是没有难的事，只是在人的角度上来看，那是不容易的。期待第五个中秋节的时候，我乃是一个不一样的我。
祝所有的朋友，中秋节蒙恩！

Can I Change The Plan?

Less than 30days i am going to leave from STM , 4 years of studies here are going to finish. After the graduation day,what am i going to do?
Life is always full of planning. After Form 5,i plan to go to the teacher college,but at the end ,i didnt report myself to the college because i decided to join in the full time ministry in my home church. After 3 years serving as a full time worker,i plan to have more working experience,so i went out for work. After 2 years of working,as what i had plan before,i came to STM and study.
In my life in STM,i also make a lot of planning and decision making.We always said God has a good plan for our lives. He always good to His children. But when i facing some difficulties that i really cant bear it,i will think and ask this question:Lord,can i change the plan?can i change what You have plan to me in my life?can i skip this level in Your planning?can i just jump to another level in Your planning? God never answer me even i ask for so many times. I felt tired and fed up. Can i change God's plan for my life?can i? The answer always is NO. I cant! I must face it . People around me sure will say,God will face it with you,dont worry;God will grant you strength,dont scared;God always be with you,you are not alone..........
God,please help me,i cant even see what will going to happen in front,can i really trust in You with all my heart?At this moment,i hope i can say YES.

Lord,have mercy upon me.....

Genting trip

Thank God for the opportunity to bring my sister to go to Genting Highlands again. The weather up there was so so so cold and strong wind. I like the weather very much but my darling was so pity because he can't stand for the cold weather. We have a very good time in Genting,we took many pictures and we experienced a new way to wash our hands which my darling can not "tahan".
Hope to be there again when we have extra money or the hotel have promotion. And now,i am backed to STM and facing the reality.....do assignments. 2 more to go,hope can finish it as soon as possible. Lord, grant me wisdom and strength.

Final year.....last semester.....

2006...my first year in STM
2009...my final year in STM and i am in the last semester .
11 credit hours for this last semester,7 assignments all together.
5 assignments are finished ,was so so happy because just have 2 more assignments left.
BUT,I don't how to start! Theology and Malaysia Church History are my last assignments but i really don't know how to do and how to start.
Lord,help me. Give me wisdom and strength to finish this 2 assignments before the reading week end. Lord,send some angels to help me please.....

Lord,help me.....

Lord,help me to have more discipline and strength to take care of myself;
Lord,help me to have more faith in You and also the one who I love so much;
Lord,help me to have more patience and love to whom doesn't like me and love me;
Lord,help me to live more like You ;
Lord,help me to stand firm in You.

long week...

This is a very long week for me after the Monday was passed. I think just maybe just because i was sick so emotionally was not so stable. Tuesday night i got my wedding photos and it was a very exciting night for me and my darling. But the next day was more worse because my flu and headache are became more serious until i had absent for my theology class. The calls that Desmond and i made for every night was so down in mood. Both of us don't know what was actually happen and cause us so down and not stable in our mood and emotion,but we pray to God,so that it will be alright soon.
Today is Saturday,tomorrow is a very long day for me. Lord,give me strength so that i can serve You and Your people with a joyful heart. Waiting for another new week,waiting for my Monday.....

911!!!!

For all the graduating students,we are compulsory to finish all our assignments before 11th September. So,911 is coming soon to all the graduating students. Today i have already listed out my assignments list with the dates that i must make it done. I hope can really can do it according to my list.Lord,please help me.

we got it already!!!!

Finally we got our wedding photos last night! It is nice!

Monday again...

As usual ,Monday is a day of waiting for my darling to come over,but today a bit special,because i have cooked something special for him.......pasta!!!But it is not very nice ,because i cook it when i am still in the sleeping mood,hahaha.
11am will have marriage counseling appointment with Dr Voon,it will be a very tired section to both of us. May God continue to guide us and bless Dr Voon.

愿神赐福于宗瑾与晓婷

刚从宗瑾和晓婷的婚礼回来。婚礼的整个礼仪与程序只有一个小时，但是却充满意义。从小就看着晓婷在我家后面玩耍，然后看着她从主日学的学生身份到成为主日学老师的身份。热心事奉，爱神，爱猫，现在看着她嫁人，还要嫁到英国去，真的有点感触。愿神赐福他们俩，婚姻幸福美满！

Praise The Lord!!!

The Sun came out after the heavy raining.....praise the Lord...

Friends,hope that everything will be alright...

Last night,I did not sleep very well for the whole night,i keep praying for my two best friends. They are facing a very difficult time in their relationship. For sure,this is not the first challenge in their relationship,they went through all the challenges since last year,then only they decided to start a new relationship to become a courtship. But yesterday after a lunch,after a lot of opinions from the 3rd party,there something happen between 2 of them. Friends,i hope that 2 of you can have another breakthrough in yours relationship,and move it to another deep level. I ask God to protect and guide you guys in yours discussion this morning. God bless

Done!

Just woke up from nap after Romans class presentation. This is my first time doing group assignment with Perng Shyang,Weng Hoi,Boon Huat and Wu Chung. It is a very good experience to me. Even though it is really hard and complicated while we are doing our exegesis part and presenting our paper in the class, but for me,i really thank God that i have this opportunity to work together with you guys and i really learnt from it. May God continue to guide and bless us,when we are pastoring the church,lets always speak the truth from the bible to our flocks!

Finally.....

After few weeks of preparation,our presentation for Romans was done and tomorrow we need to present it in front of 55 people including our principal and lecturer. It is a great experience and joy to work together with the "F4" team in STM. It is stress for sure(it cause my back pain for 2 weeks)but i learnt a lot from them and also the way they prepare for exegesis paper. May God continue to grant us wisdom while we are presenting our paper tomorrow.

Another Monday ......

150 days to go.......where to go?go to Sitiawan lah.....wedding mah.....hahahahha. Monday always is the day i am waiting for(sometimes is Sunday lah,but it is depend on how my darling's mood) . What am i waiting for?hahahah,waiting for my darling,Desmond Kok. Every Monday Desmond will come to STM,then we will go for movie,go shopping,go to have meal together,means,go pak toh lah. Just like normal,today is a Monday again,and just because my darling needs me to help to move his books to the new office and pack all his clothes(so so so so many clothes ah....)so i can go to Kajang on Sunday! yeah!hahahah.....This morning after we woke up and went for breakfast,we start moving the books from my darling's room to the new office. From this event,i can know more about my darling. What happen?haih.....i realize that he doesn't like people to disturb him when he is concerntrate on doing something and he doesn't like people to "help"him also. This is a very good experince to me(before marriage,hahhaha).The most exciting thing that we did today is we went to S2 City Park! We saw a lot of FISH and TURTLE!(and also burung gagak). City Park is a very nice place to go for exercise and also pak toh....hahahhaha....must go again!

A Busy Sunday....

10minutes after i will leave STM for weekend practical in FCC. 9am is English Service;10.30am Chinese Prayer Meeting;11.30am Chinese Service;2pm Malay Service and Malay Children Ministry. After all that finished is already 4pm. This is my schedule for every Sunday practical. After that i will meet up with my darling and we are going to have a "Romans"night,not romantic night but "Romans". Hahaha,he is going to help me in doing my Romans exegesis assignment. Thank you dear,for you love and care. May God continue to bless you......

1st August....Happy Birthday to my beloved sister

Today is my sister,Suk Yin's birthday. Time flies and now she is already 24 years old. I still remember when i was young,me and my brother,Jun Siong(Samson) are always bully her. Suk Yin is the youngest in my family,and when my father passed away she was only 9 years old. 15 years passed and now she is going to graduate on Oct as a degree holder in UMS. Suk Yin did very well in her academic and also very active serving in the church. She is a tambourine dancer and she is a bassist too. She is very good in singing also,especially Malay songs,hahahah.Anyway,mei mei,happy birthday to you,may God continue to grant you wisdom and grace to serve Him and trust in Him always!

I AM NEW

The purpose i created this blog is want to give myself an opportunity to blogging by using English. (For sure i will blogging in Chinese sometimes) Another thing is i hope my future husband,Desmond Kok can help me to do the corrections in what i am writing in this blog. May God grant me wisdom and grace to improve my English by blogging.