Less than 30days i am going to leave from STM , 4 years of studies here are going to finish. After the graduation day,what am i going to do?
Life is always full of planning. After Form 5,i plan to go to the teacher college,but at the end ,i didnt report myself to the college because i decided to join in the full time ministry in my home church. After 3 years serving as a full time worker,i plan to have more working experience,so i went out for work. After 2 years of working,as what i had plan before,i came to STM and study.
In my life in STM,i also make a lot of planning and decision making.We always said God has a good plan for our lives. He always good to His children. But when i facing some difficulties that i really cant bear it,i will think and ask this question:Lord,can i change the plan?can i change what You have plan to me in my life?can i skip this level in Your planning?can i just jump to another level in Your planning? God never answer me even i ask for so many times. I felt tired and fed up. Can i change God's plan for my life?can i? The answer always is NO. I cant! I must face it . People around me sure will say,God will face it with you,dont worry;God will grant you strength,dont scared;God always be with you,you are not alone..........
God,please help me,i cant even see what will going to happen in front,can i really trust in You with all my heart?At this moment,i hope i can say YES.
Lord,have mercy upon me.....
